Saturday, September 17, 2005

VERY low blood pressure

First the downer stuff from today: I just left the hospital tonight and Denise's heart rate did lower to the 112-120 range. But her blood pressure is REALLY low, like 58/37 at one point tonight (about the best I saw today was 82/43). Very scary. The two meds that were administered to lower the heart rate (and increase blood flow) have been discontinued because the blood pressure is way too low. Denise expressed to the nurse tonight that she was scared. She's been saying that more over the past week. I must admit that while I try to be encouraging and point out all the progress and things to be optimistic about, I find it hard to be encouraged by what I'm saying to her sometimes. She got up to 103.9 last night and was about 102 when I left tonight. I heard from the nurse that the infectious disease doctor switched the antibiotic from Primaxin to something else because the pseudomonas infection is resistant to the Primaxin. For those that would ask, I forgot to get the name of the new antibiotic. So there are some pretty scary things going on right now.

Now for the good stuff: I turned 35 today. You might be asking why that's not listed in the "downer" paragraph. But it was really nice. They sent me out of the room to "clean Denise up." When I returned and opened the curtains, Denise had a teddy bear, a balloon boquet, and a couple cards. A bunch of nurses were in the room and everyone wished me a happy birthday. They deflated the cuff on Denise's tracheostomy and she was able to say "Happy birthday" to me. The card from Denise had writing that looked almost normal. The nurses also had a signed card for me. Denise was able to tell the staff to get my favorite pie & ice cream and organized a couple other things. Pretty impressive, I must say. She was fairly alert in the afternoon, which was also nice. Yesterday one of the teachers from work dropped off a goodie bag for me that all the other teachers & students put together. That was really helpful & encouraging to me (thank you all VERY much! I'm overwhelmed!). Today my friend from Tennessee that's visiting me invited a bunch of his friends over to my house (they happen to be my friends, too). So it was sort of a reunion for him, and a birthday party for me (I wasn't there most of the time because I was visiting Denise so much). At one point as the party was winding down, a car caught fire down at the end of my block. According to a witness, a drunk driver caused an accident, drove away, and finally got out of his car on my street as it was burning. Fortunately, it wasn't anyone from the shindig at my place.

I also had a few people go with me to visit Denise today. The support was good. On the way home tonight, one of my friends said that the blog was good for her & her husband. Each entry sparks a conversation about what they'd do if they were in my situation. The book I'm reading had a quote from Nietzsche that said "It is not so much the suffering as the senselessness of it that is unendurable." So hearing how the blog is helping a couple connect adds some sense to what Denise & I are going through right now.

I just got a call from the hospital to go over because Denise's blood pressure's low and not coming up. So here I go. Keep us in your prayers.


Anonymous Anonymous said...

You have no idea the impact your blogger makes on the lives of others. I am a friend of Suzanne Berry's and I met you and Denise years ago when she and Chris came out to California. I am married now and my husband is in a police academy that he is ready to quit. Sometimes I get so upset at where we are in our lives and it is NOTHING compared to what you are going through. Then I think what you are going through is nothing compared to what Jesus went through so that we could have a direct relationship to God. I hope God lets you keep Denise for years to come. You must know the encouragement and witness that both of you are giving to Christians and nonChristians - about life, about commitment, and about LOVE. Even to all the nurses and hospital staff that need to know Jesus. I hurt for you, but I pray that God would work in the hurt. As Suzanne would say - Love in Christ.

September 18, 2005 5:15 AM  
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September 18, 2005 6:58 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Phil and Denise,

I have been praying for you for a while now. My heart goes out to you and your family for what you are having to endure. As I have read in another’s comments that they are praying for Gods healing hand to be upon Denise. I also, am praying for this. I like that you have set up a blog site, because it tells me how and what I should be praying for.

God’s word says that “He only gives you what you can handle” and I like to say “and you give the rest to Him”. “He is with us always. He will never leave us or
forsake us”.

Mt 11:28
Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me.” For I am gentle and humble in heart. And you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.

May God truly bless you both.
Happy Birthday Phil

September 18, 2005 8:50 AM  

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